February 10th, 2009


Today’s ten-watt bulb is that no one is grading my life on how tidy it is. No one is grading my life at all, but I’m not entirely prepared to give up my personal paranoia about the people with the clipboards. I’ll save that lightbulb for another day.

I have to learn the same lessons over and over. While I do require a certain amount of order (and more than many people seem to) in order to function, I can make messes. Messes are creative. I find this most intuitively in the kitchen, where messes and I inevitably intersect. I spill things and drip things. I never bake in black clothes and I have an apron that covers pretty much everything. No amount of care on my part will change the laws of kitchen physics, so I simply try to remember to clean up. Besides, cookies soothe the hearts of even the most intense neat freaks.

Every once in a while, the urge to make a collage comes over me. Usually I just wait it out. Collage is messy. I always end up with little shards of paper everywhere. Also glue in places where glue does not belong. I try to resist the collage habit as well, because nothing leads to clutter like a collage habit. NO! Don’t throw away those magazines and catalogs! Collage! Those photos with everyone looking possessed? Collage! That box, label, sticker, can tab? Mine! For collage!

But what if I don’t wait it out this time? What if I take all the little pieces of detritus and glue them together into something interesting, a life, say?

Argh... The bunnies are out to get me...

Your result for The Golden Compass Daemon Test...

Shy Loving Soul

You are a sensitive and shy person. You want to be loved and liked, but you don't think people actually like you very much, and that hurts to think about. You like to be with your family and friends, who care about you. When you are with them, you can open up and talk and be yourself. Among strangers, however, you are nervous and tend to clam up. People are often surprised at how talkative you can be once they get to know you, because you appear to be so quiet and bland at first. You hide your feelings from people whom you do not know well, because you don't know if you can trust them. With your loved ones you can be more yourself.

Your feelings are easily hurt, and you tend to be easily embarassed. You are sensitive, and your loved ones may even tease you about being a little TOO sensitive at times. When your feelings are hurt, you don't always let on. You don't like confrontations, and you are not the sort of person to throw a melodramatic hissy fit. You just tend to fret over it for a few days, until eventually the misunderstanding is cleared up, or time heals the wound.

Your daemon would represent your shyness and sensitivity, and your love of family, and your tendency to hide your feelings from strangers. He or She would probably hide in your pocket or sit on your shoulder where he/she would whisper comfort into your ear.

Suggested forms:
Rabbit, Dormouse, Dik-dik, Sighthound

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