October 6th, 2009

Please hand over the remote...

Sometimes it is not fair. I mean, I’m trying to get behind this whole compassionate take on life thing. I’m trying to find out if letting up on the beatings causes a drop in productivity or an increase in morale or something else entirely. So really, life could stop pointing out all my control issues. I wouldn’t mind.

I like to know what is going to happen next. Unexpected shifts of schedule unnerve me. Last week, with kids home from school sick: unnerving. Waiting for a return visit to the doctor: unnerving. Amorphous plans that coalesce suddenly (or evaporate entirely!): unnerving.

Then there are hormones. Can I just say that I hate them? I’ve never been clear about whether the hormones at pms time cause me to perceive issues that are always there and then freak out about them, or if the hormones themselves are the issue. Net result is the same: woman standing crying in the kitchen with knuckles in eyes like a little kid for totally inadequate reasons. This is not how I like to be.

Always there are the tensions between the creative process and its own messy sense of when things happen and the reassurance of routine. The grandiose plans that would be really really cool, but how will dinner get made? What about clean underwear?

These things panic me. So far today I am keeping it together. I would like a medal. Yes, I am that silly.

New Way to Help an Elf!!!

Hey loves!

I have done my words of the day for T's Christmas story. Thank you all for your help in keeping me on track with this project. If you'd like, I now have a whole new way for you to give me a hand with this Christmas project.

One of the characters in the story has a blog that provides important clues for the folks trying to rescue her from the trolls. I've drafted a bunch of posts and I've created a new blog on which I will be posting the entries. What I need is trolls. If you have the time and some spare aggression that needs a creative outlet, would you please spew your vitriol at the blog entries?

The new blog is at http://rtfieldtallulah.livejournal.com/. So far I've posted the introductory post with the story summary and directions. (That post doesn't need any trolls.) Shortly I'll post the first troll-needing post.

Many many thanks!